The Chijioke Life

So after my last post, I went to bed, determined to keep my eyes on what the Lord was telling me and trust in Him... Have you ever heard the phrase, "...be careful what you wish (or in this case, pray) for..."? LOL The next morning was Sunday, I was looking forward to attending church for the first time in several weeks. Due to work, etc. I hadn't been able to make it and I was hungry for some fellowship and a chance to worship and learn... Well, my morning started out with a VERY cranky 14month old, who didn't want anything but for me to hold him - not easy to do when trying to dress for church!! As I was juggling keeping him happy and getting ready - I heard Cadence start screaming from the other room... She and Justin had been playing, racing each other and the dog had gotten excited and in the process of joining the chase - she ran through Cadie's legs and completely upended her. Cadence landed hard on her head on our marble floor!! No blood and I couldn...

I have been really struggling this week, struggling with grief, fear, loss, the feeling that I am expected to be "over this now", the reality that it has only just begun and all the emotions tied up in those issues... I was working hard to remember the verses God had given me, struggling to not be discouraged... I am overwhelmed with the inability to "get a handle on things" -- I feel like just when I'm starting to stand upright, I keep getting my feet knocked out from under me!! I have not been "resting" lately, I have a thousand items clamoring for my attention and for each thing I get crossed off of my list... it seems like two more get added!! Add to that, my inability to sleep due to working nights and my "circadian rhythm" getting out of whack and it turns me into an exhausted, emotional wreck!! I worked last night and during the quiet, still hours of the late night/early morning, I felt like I was battling for control of my mind and tr...

This week has quickly passed by! The plumbers came on Wednesday to begin the work on my slab leak, as it had been over a week without hot water in my house, we were more than ready to have it fixed!! However, I was DREADING the upheaval it was going to cause, jack-hammering through my tile and foundation... I had a few appointments that morning, so I left, knowing my sister would oversee the work and keep me updated. Upon looking at my contract I saw that the quoted price covered "...up to 8 hours of labor and 3 ft of pipe...anything extra will incur further costs..." "Great" , I said to Martha, "I wonder how much more it will cost me... the guy said it was a potentially complicated leak and worst case, could lead to me having 3 holes busted into my tile and/or new wood floor... the way things are going in my life, I'm just going to plan for the worst!!" She just laughed at me. As I was sitting in my counseling appointment, we were discussing some of ...