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Resting...

This week has quickly passed by! The plumbers came on Wednesday to begin the work on my slab leak, as it had been over a week without hot water in my house, we were more than ready to have it fixed!! However, I was DREADING the upheaval it was going to cause, jack-hammering through my tile and foundation...

I had a few appointments that morning, so I left, knowing my sister would oversee the work and keep me updated. Upon looking at my contract I saw that the quoted price covered "...up to 8 hours of labor and 3 ft of pipe...anything extra will incur further costs..."
"Great", I said to Martha, "I wonder how much more it will cost me... the guy said it was a potentially complicated leak and worst case, could lead to me having 3 holes busted into my tile and/or new wood floor... the way things are going in my life, I'm just going to plan for the worst!!" She just laughed at me.

As I was sitting in my counseling appointment, we were discussing some of the things going on and the chaos it was causing in my life... and how the past almost 6 months have been pretty much along those same lines. I was going on about how I hated feeling so "out of control and not able to fix anything".

After listening for a moment, my counselor said something which stopped me in my tracks, she said, "...well, okay Hannah, this all looks overwhelming, but we know that we can just leave this in God's hands -- whether or not you are supposed to be a part of the solution, He is telling you that He has got this and He is taking care of it - we can thank Him for that..."

I had to chuckle, as I realized, that I was taking the weight of the world on my shoulders when that is NOT what God wanted at all!!
Matthew 11:28
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest..."
Isaiah 28:12a
"...to whom He said, "This is the resting place, let the weary rest"; and, "This is the place of repose"..."
These verses from my devotions this week were God talking to me and I loved it! In all the craziness, sorrow and chaos - God was asking me to REST in knowing that He is taking care of every need and will continue to do so -- what an amazing and relaxing thing!! (:
Our heavenly Father loves his kids so much, He promises us over and over that He will take care of things for us and that we shouldn't worry... the Bible is FULL of His assurances, I guess He knows what we are like and how fragile we can be...
This is my memory verse for January - a great reminder when I start to get overwhelmed with things.
Deuteronomy 31:8
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."


On a good ending: my sister called me 4hrs later to tell me that the plumbers were DONE and they not only saved my hardwood floor, they only had to dig ONE hole and we probably have enough extra tiles left over to patch the kitchen floor, instead of having to replace the whole thing - saving a load of money!! Praise God (:

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