8 years ago this was my status. A "weekend away" used to seem so long without Cj, when I didn't know that a "lifetime away" was quickly approaching. Every day is a long day, every night is forever... ::God, how I miss him:: Facebook memories have been inundating me with old posts, reminding me of a lost time of blissful, ignorant, innocence... depending on the day it seems to mock me. My heart aches as the 5th anniversary looms ahead and I remember the unknowingly, unappreciated joys of Making dinner while watching the kids lounging with CJ... Laughing as Cadence danced to loud music with her daddy... Stifling laughter as Cj and I make eye contact over the boys' heads, listening to another hair brained idea... Talking about life and decisions with the man who loved me and wanted the best for our family... I look at my 5yr old who didn't get to know his daddy and <so> <desperately> wants, NEEDS to
Our new family story as I, and my 5 children, learn to thrive - not just survive - after the loss of our "main man". This life is a continuing walk in God's amazing grace. "To each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift." Eph 4:7