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Just one minute...



"There's a whole 'nother conversation going on in a parallel universe...

Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts. There's a waltz playin' frozen in time...

Could you beam me up, give me a minute, I don't know what I'd say in it... I'd probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up..."

Over these past, almost 4yrs:
I have learned how to live each day and night alone... 
I have chosen to figure out how to smile again... 
How to laugh and love again...
I have chosen to refuse the belief that because the risk of pain is so great that the love is not worth it... 
I have become stronger... 
and softer... 
I love deeper...
I forgive quicker...
I open myself more than ever before...
I am more aware of the pain around me...
I see the wells of sadness behind others brave smiles and my heart aches for their pain. I am burdened for the pain and yet, I know the love was worth it and we wouldn't choose to forfeit one day with our loved, lost ones... and so I just look and acknowledge {accept} the grief I see mirrored in their eyes.

I am thankful for this new perspective on life - it has made me a wiser, deeper person and I have seen, experienced so much more of the nature of God and His indescribable love for each of us... His precious children. 

And yet, I am human and some days are so much heavier than others... 
Today, this song {from Pink} is speaking my heart's words -- if only one minute to hold his face again. 

One day......
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