Skip to main content

Where did April go??!!

It has been a busy, busy couple of weeks! We are careening towards the end of the school year, only a couple more weeks left. A lot has gone on and a multitude of decisions and choices have been worked through in preparation for the next school year, I'm at peace with these decisions and know God is leading and has great plans for us.

He will swallow up death forever, and the Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces... Isaiah 25:8

Sorrow and sighing shall flee away. Isaiah 35:10

...for the Lord will be your everlasting light, and the days of your mourning shall be ended. Isaiah 60:20


These verses have been a comfort to me over the past days. At times, it seems like the sadness is overwhelming and I feel like I can no longer cope with the stress, chaos, pending decisions and burden of grief. That is when the truths of God and His incredible love for me and my kids holds me up and carries me along until I can stand again. So thankful that I am a child of God!

One of the fun things that happened over the last month was that Christian got to go to Cj's job for their "take your child to work" day.
What a neat experience for him!! Cj's boss (and now a friend), and several of his coworkers, worked together to bless Christian with a great day learning about what his dad did and getting to see that side of Cj. Christian was so happy after being there, he talked about it for quite awhile and still mentions it!! Gave him some goals to reach for and a vision for his future choice of profession...
We are continually blessed and amazed by the precious people from Cj's job - they have had (and continue to have) an incredible impact in our lives.
The summer looms!! We have a few trips planned for some needed "family fun" time - looking forward to a slower pace of life for a few months (:

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Embracing The Path

"I hate, hate, hate being a widow" I exclaimed, tears trickling down my face into my hair as I lay on my bed, talking on the phone with a friend. "I am 38 years old and I don't know who I am, because my life got turned upside down 6 years ago and I no longer know me.... actually, that isn't true, I do know...", I whispered, "I just don't want it." "I don't want this life and yet I feel like in order to move forward into what God has for me, I need to embrace this truth of who I am - even though I didn't choose it." , my voice broke as I swiped uselessly at the endless trail of silent tears, "I. Didn't. Want. This." I am at a conference  for my company this  holiday weekend  and it has been great! A few days packed full of information, knowledge, laughter, new friends -- and self examination and truths.  This was supposed to be a weekend of business training and yet all I keep hearing is "know who yo...

A 40th Birthday

Cj would have celebrated his 40th birthday yesterday.  No matter how well I think I've prepared for it, acknowledged it... no matter how many times I've been here in the almost 6yrs of walking this path; the anniversaries - birthdays, holidays, our wedding, his death - these days are brutal for me.  It doesn't matter how well I've been doing or how strong I'm feeling in the weeks leading up to them -- there always comes the day when I can't hold it together anymore and the grief comes roaring back to center stage.  I can blame it on exhaustion, stress, sadness of other circumstances around me triggering it, but, the truth of the matter is that I just miss him.  I hate being a widow.  Hate my kids not having a daddy.  Hate missing him so badly it hurts to breathe.  Hate remembering the good times only to awaken to the reality again.  Hate mourning the "what should have been".  Hate walking around choking on tears and drow...

Lessons in the Carribbean

Yesterday was a stepping stone in my grief process, a moment in the healing journey. Grief is such an odd walk, sometimes you expect the triggers - like driving through Tennessee last year - and other times these moments crash on you unexpectedly. Oddly enough, these are the moments that, although they are awful to breathe through - bring such comfort because I KNOW the presence and peace of my Savior as He carries me through the valley, lifts me up out of the waves. Yesterday was one of those unexpected tsunamis that opened my eyes to another facet of healing, growth, and grief that I needed, desperately, to address. It was a perfect day in the Riviera Maya - we were on a girls birthday trip in Tulum, an unexpected blessing, and we decided to try a new activity; paddle-boarding in a bay off the ocean. We headed out early, dashing across mexican traffic to catch the "Collectiva", or local taxi bus. We crowded 6 of us girls into the little bus and hurtled down the road. Upon r...