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Where did April go??!!

It has been a busy, busy couple of weeks! We are careening towards the end of the school year, only a couple more weeks left. A lot has gone on and a multitude of decisions and choices have been worked through in preparation for the next school year, I'm at peace with these decisions and know God is leading and has great plans for us.

He will swallow up death forever, and the Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces... Isaiah 25:8

Sorrow and sighing shall flee away. Isaiah 35:10

...for the Lord will be your everlasting light, and the days of your mourning shall be ended. Isaiah 60:20

These verses have been a comfort to me over the past days. At times, it seems like the sadness is overwhelming and I feel like I can no longer cope with the stress, chaos, pending decisions and burden of grief. That is when the truths of God and His incredible love for me and my kids holds me up and carries me along until I can stand again. So thankful that I am a child of God!

One of the fun things that happened over the last month was that Christian got to go to Cj's job for their "take your child to work" day.
What a neat experience for him!! Cj's boss (and now a friend), and several of his coworkers, worked together to bless Christian with a great day learning about what his dad did and getting to see that side of Cj. Christian was so happy after being there, he talked about it for quite awhile and still mentions it!! Gave him some goals to reach for and a vision for his future choice of profession...
We are continually blessed and amazed by the precious people from Cj's job - they have had (and continue to have) an incredible impact in our lives.
The summer looms!! We have a few trips planned for some needed "family fun" time - looking forward to a slower pace of life for a few months (:

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