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April was a difficult month for me this year... I had a milestone birthday - 35. This was rough for me, not just because it is HALFWAY TO 70 (!!!).... but, because I am now officially older than Cj ever was in this life...

Just another marker that he is gone and we have to move past that chapter of our lives on this earth. I want to keep him with us so badly, but, that is not possible and it is painful to be reminded of it - again.

During the weeks leading up to April, I was fighting the sadness that was threatening to overwhelm as my birthday approached.

But, God is SO good, you guys!! He knew how painful this birthday was for me and had a sweet surprise in store!!
Rather out of the blue, a friend contacted several of us from an old playgroup/church fellowship and invited us on a girls trip to Cancun!! Wow.... what a delightful blessing!! It worked out that we left the day after my birthday so it worked as a birthday trip too :)

We spent 5 days in the paradise of Cancun, Mexico and thoroughly enjoyed every moment!


What a wonderful time of relaxation and rejuvenating!! Water & nature are so relaxing to me - I feel very "connected" to God and the conversations with Him just flow naturally... soothing & refreshing to my soul!!

I got a LOT browned and enjoyed fun times of fellowship with my sweet girlfriends as we took off our "mom hats" and enjoyed just being girls!! :)


"I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My life makes its boast in the Lord; let the humble and afflicted hear and be glad. O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together." Psalm 34: 1-3


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