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Blessings...

This week has been busy, hectic, stressful in many ways, but packed with unexpected blessings!
It started off with testing for the kids for school, Andrew was crying the night before, "what if I do badly, answer everything wrong and they kick me out.. or put me back in kindergarten?!"... my slightly dramatic child!
But, as we have fallen off the learning train this summer and with all of the trauma that has occured, I have to admit I was a little worried too!
The testing went well, we met some very kind and sensitive people at the school. All the boys were happy at the end and had a "good time"...we haven't heard if they are back in kindergarten yet!! Lol (;

The middle part of the week consisted of a couple days away at a local hotel for a mental health/spiritual retreat time for me. The peace and quiet were really good for me, though William kept it from being too quiet!

I came home on Thursday to find a delightful surprise, my family and close friends had spent my time away doing their version of "extreme makeover: bedroom edition"!! My room was transformed into a serene and beautiful retreat - almost made me cry, but, I was too happy!!

The end of this week was a flurry of meetings and calls - so many things continue to be in limbo. We get things started, but, due to a lot of varying factors we have to wait on forms, paperwork from others - this simply means, I can't cross things off of our "to do" lists... a bit frustrating for me! However, through these meetings, the Lord has brought certain people into our lives who are blessing me with their grace and sensitivity as they assist me in navigating these waters of being a single mom and provider for my family.

After the emotional turmoil at the beginning of the week, the Lord has graced me with smoother waters.. the deep sadness remains, but, I'm able to rest in the peace He provides.

Here are some beautiful verses from my devotions this week:
"Do not fear, says the Lord, for I am with you..."Jer 46:28
"...with everlasting kindness I will have mercy on you, says the Lord your Redeemer...for the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but My kindness shall not depart from you, nor shall My covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord, who has mercy on you. "O afflicted one, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems; and lay your foundations with sapphires." Is 54: 7-8, 10-11

Prayer Needs
1. Prayer for school, starts next week, still finishing all the paperwork and geting necessary forms... pray that the kids can start on the first day with everyone else.
2. Still searching for a godly, christian counselor for kids and myself - seeing more of a serious need for this, if anyone local knows someone to recommend, I'm open to suggestions!
3. Continued healing

Thank-you for your prayers!

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