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A birthday and life!!!

Today was Cadence's 5th birthday -- a milestone in her young life. Happy birthday my beautiful princess - hard to believe how fast the time is flying by!!
We had fun celebrating with most of my family in town for the week. It was good to celebrate, as its been a rough few days here!
My Christmas eve present was to discover a "warm spot" on my kitchen floor... Couldn't figure out what was causing it -- with the cold weather it was actually kinda nice (:
Would've been great if I actually had heated tile floors, but -- I don't! :-/
When it started spreading farther into the kitchen and the living room and then became a HOT spot, we began to get a bit worried!!
3 days later, after much investigation and a call to the fire department - we got in touch with a plumber who proceeded to alert us that we have a "slab leak".
**...Sigh...**
So it appears that my house is about to be torn apart -- again. They tell me that they will try to bust up just my tile floor in the kitchen, but, they can't promise they won't have to take up the new hardwood...
"...well... Okay!!"
This is when I'm doubly grateful for my amazing sister and brother in law being here!! They quickly stepped in and handled making the necessary phone calls, talking with technicians and reminding me to look on the bright side!! (;
On top of all of this, the electricity in half of my upstairs decided to mysteriously quit working and the nasty cold bug that I had been warding off for several weeks, caught up with me and took me down for the count!!
I went running to the Word, because I was feeling worn out, desperate and run over by life -- yet again.
These beautiful verses were a gift to me, yesterday and today.

Isaiah 26:3-4,8b-9a
"You will keep in perfect peace, all who trust in You. All whose thoughts are fixed on You. So trust in the Lord always, He is the eternal rock!
...but for those who are righteous, the way is not steep and rough.
You are a God who does what is right and You smooth out the path before them."
"...we have waited for You eagerly. Your name, even Your memory, is the desire of our souls! At night my soul longs for You! Indeed my spirit within me seeks You diligently!"

I know that as I keep my focus on God, even all these petty, frustrating, and expensive things (lol) of life on this earth will work out... Eventually!!
Thank You, Lord, that I can remember Your promises and NOT worry about the details -- You are taking care of it all!!

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